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theTitanic.'How I wish I were nearyou. I know with Florence, which spurred Ismayon to ever I would never be angry or vexed by anything you more personal rwelations. He had, he told Marian said... myheart and spirit are broken and I feel "such a horrible, undemonstrative natue. I cannot at times I must give in... I cannot interest myself show people how fond I am ofthem and not in anything. Mymind seems to refuse to retain doing so hurts their feelings and they imagine I side [of theAtlantic]'? She did come, but there is anything but the remllection ofthat awfrrl disaster." do not care forthem.What can I do? One cannot no record of a meeting with Ismay. The flowofleners continued forseveral months, hurt otherpeople without hurting oneselfl'. No furtherletters exist. It's possible Ismayhad Ismay's often self-pitying. "Anyambitions I had It is unlikelyhe had everexpressed this to his an alfairwith Edith Russell, whose life he had are entirelygone and mylife's workis ruined." wife. "Very often," he continued to Thayer, "a saved: she confided to William Macquitty, who He had no furure ambitions - he had planned word would make things right, one's horrid pride produced the film about the disaster,ANight on retiring the following year. "Perhaps I was too steps in and this causes unhappiness... I can to Remember, that she and Ismay had become pmud of the ships and this is my punishment. If hear you saying what a honible character and "more than iust friends". But the intensity of so it is a heavyone... How I wish the hands of I agree. I absolutely hate myself at times. Tell me affection he felt towards Marian seems never the dock could be put back." Mrs Thayer, for her what I can do to cure myself... Do you know that to have been replicated. Russell was one of the part' suggests they might have met in a previous I always put my worst side forward and very very few survivors who saw Ismay as a hero. In truth, life. Then Ismay suggested that he had "no more few people ever get under the surface?" he was an ordinary man caught in extraordinary to do with [the disaster]"than she had.This Marian was filing an insurance claim for the circumstances, who behaved in a way that only startled her: surelyhe should acknowledge some loss of her husband's life and asked Ismay if he confirmed his ordinariness. Ismayis the figure responsibility? Her sympathy started to wane. might, as a favour to a friend, exert his influence we all fearwe might be. He is one of us I To and fto the letters went. "l often thinkof by presenting her case to Mr Franklin for special Exmaed from How to Suraiae the Titnnic or where our friendship would hrve taken us if that consideration. He refused, suggesting that "if you The Sinking of I Bruce lsmay, by Fmnces Wikon awftrl disasterhad not taken place, howwell will thinkthis matteroveryou will agree that lam (B loomsbury, t I S.99), puhlkhed on August 1 5. I remember ourconversations when werything aaing rightly''. The correspondence dwindled. A It is auailable fromThe SundayThncsBookshq looked so brighg"lsmaywent on. Tou had avery week after the first anniversary of the Titanic's forf,17.09, includingpap.Tel: 0845 271 2135 peculiar atraaion to me and I loved talking to you sinking when Ismay had "almost girrn up waiting" and hearing you tallg you interested me so much." for word from Marian, he heard from her again. But by now Mrs Thayer was in rapid reEeat. For She was the only person who understood him FtnloutwhyFranceswitso" a and all his faults, he writes, as he unburdens her, theywere two survivors who had shared a himself to her. Will she ever be "coming to this m investigated Ismay's Life afterth6 | Titanic: thesundavtimes.co.ukftilf ghasdyryerience. She struckup a correspondence
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